Easy~Writer

Unsure...

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 17:29:02 GMT

about so many things...

Please give her a home....

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 18:11:06 GMT

Yeah, I know I'm not one to update this thang...but...is anyone out there looking for a dog?

I found this baby girl about 5 weeks ago, and rescued her off the street. I found her around the Marina blvd and Lyons road area, and captured her when I saw her almost get hit by a van. There have been no signs or responses to the found claims put into the humane societies. We believe she has been abandoned. My boyfriend and I have been providing a great home for her for the time being, but really cannot afford to have the responsibility of a dog right now. I brought her to the vet and she's said to be about 1 and a 1/2 - 2 years old. She is a mix between (this are possible breed mixes, not proven) German Shepard, Greyhound, and Golden Retriever. She is extremely healthy, and loves belly rubs, attention, and to play tug of war with rope. She is fully trained and house broken. She can sit, stay, lay down, speak, paw and all that good stuff, and has not had even one accident in the house. Oh, and she's even already spayed. I've provided some pictures behind the cut, so if you or anyone you know is interested and can provide some time and love to an awesome dog, please let me know.

Thanks, comment for more information or if you can offer me any info as to someone that may be interested.
=)

What Would Jack Bauer Do?

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:23:48 GMT

I am writing an entry today, I suppose to show that I am still around to those who are still wondering. Mainly writing it for a different reason though. With this entry here, being my first in 2006 and my first in many months, my archive shows that I have now had this journal for what appears to be 5 years. Worth it? I don't know, but I do know I have shared a hell of a lot of words, and a lot of feelings on this space I've called my own.

I am in my Measurement and Evaluation class right now, only stalling time.

So much, oh so much to express. Isn't this always the case?

Nothing has changed, but everything is different. It must be me.

It's tough to keep up with yourself when your brain works a mile a minute.

What Wouldn't Jack Bauer Do?...

It's an amazing feeling, when you've finally found the greatest.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 18:34:23 GMT

I don't think I can write that entry that's expected of me. Sean was worth more than some LJ words. I don't know, maybe I'm just still not letting myself believe it. So much is still so unexplained.

On a seperate note, and in reference to my subject line. I have the greatest boyfriend ever!
Adam requested a song for me this morning on Majic. How amazing is that? He's so great, to me and in general.
I love you.

come on, come on, come on, come on, now, touch me baby...

I don't use this thing anymore, but

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 20:48:05 GMT

go to www.joshsunshine.com and be amazed.

don't be afraid to show support, thank you.

ps, meagan: we'll be speaking soon.

ninefivefourfoursixfourfoureightthreethree

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 16:20:34 GMT

Yeah so, I'm done with the whole going out of my way and doing things for other people thing. You start realizing things when shit doesnt stop blowing up in your face. It figures... you can't be nice to people, because to them you aint nothing but a face in the crowd. That's not the only thing I'm done with. I now know who's true in my life. You know how to reach me if you care.
It's been real.
Julie

sometimes,

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 13:25:43 GMT

i really wish i had an advice fairy.

oh, and i want to thank the 2 people on here that actually showed a little remorse when i was down. it's not easy losing one of the greatest people you've ever known. i guess i'll just wait for ya'll to go through the same thing though, and then not say im sorry.
i guess that was it in advance.
grow a heart.

at least i still have my boo. and that my friends, is never ending.

in case you're wondering why im not around, let me refresh you on feeling down

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 07:48:55 GMT

REST IN PEACE

September 2, 1917 - July 20, 2004

Samuel Geller.
The greatest grandfather I've ever known.

Things are barely handling themselves right now, life always finds a way to kill a high. I'm going to miss you so much grandpa, I'm not sure I ever told you just how much I really love you. Things will never be the same again. You are going to be missed every day by your whole family. You have been so amazing, and I will never ever forget you and the great times we shared. I love you. I hope things are still peaceful for you, and that you shall never again feel a pain. You are one of the strongest men I've ever known, and you will always be in my thoughts and in my heart. Rest in peace grandpa, I'm going to miss you so much.

help a bitzla out!

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 18:40:05 GMT

hey im wondering if anyone knows where i might be able to find one lawn seat ticket for the dave concert on july 31st. if you guys know anyone willing to sell an extra ticket or something PLEASE let me know. thanks a lot
Julie

Dear Mom and Dad:

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 19:26:49 GMT

Why can't you just talk to me like you used to? In a way where no matter what, you made everything feel better. You spoke from the part of you that was always the same age as I was, and understood where I was coming from. The part of you that could relate and then give even further input. The advice that was worth running for. The words I'm hearing are no longer soothing to my life's rough turns and unfinished paths. Now they make me feel as if I'm nothing but the roach you killed last night in the kitchen, or the crumbs you wipe off the table every night. There is no more advice, there are just words. Long, repetative, uninterprable words. Proclaimed daily, not always, but at times. The words that make me want to stay away late at night, in the arms of someone who does understand me. Someone who treats me as the equal I deserve to be. You use me as a comparison, and I see it even if you don't say it. You don't want to make any "mistakes" that you might have made with Josh, again. I was always convinced that treating others differently was a mistake, and if not a mistake, then a problem. Things never used to be like this, and they never should. I'm tired of feeling small. I've made some really big decisions the past few months, and I think that should just further show you what kind of person I am. Not one who needs to be compared, or competitive, but my own. I need to learn from my mistakes, and yes I will certainly learn from yours and other peoples mistakes around me, but the key is that i learn from them, not be punished for them. I just wish things were easier, and more like they were in the past. I know we've been going through a lot of changes over the past couple months, but I don't want it to effect anything that our family has had in the past. I want to make changes that you guys agree with but I can't do that if we don't talk. When I approach you, you have nothing to say. and when you apprach me, it always feels like more than an approach. More like a bombarding. I would appreciate some time to sit and talk things out with you guys, but I'm not looking for time where you sit around me and I have to talk. I need your input, advice, and ideas, just like parents should be giving, in order for things to work out. Even if I don't agree with everything you may say, it really helps knowing what you think and how you feel. I can't read your minds, and I'm not interested in trying. all I want is to know what you need to tell me, because the roads are too blurry to read your signs.
I love you both and I know that I've been acting differently lately, but just think back to your teenage years, and take a glance at where I'm at. Please don't try to take this away from me, you know it wouldn't be fair.
- love always
Julie

Now I just need the guts to show it to them...

UGH I like it like that...

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 08:39:13 GMT

4:40 in the morning and I get to fall asleep to our theme song, TV isnt totally useless...

my sleep schedule is officially fucked.

yes, i am back

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 17:44:53 GMT

I am back from the vacation of a lifetime. Tons of unforgettable moments, majority of which have been caught on camera. There were huge ups, the occassional downs, and plenty of "i want to go homes," but we worked through it, and things were just simply amazing. I am trying to set up a website for my pictures, even though I have no idea how to do that. I'm sure I'll figure something out. Just thought I'd put in a quick line to let everyone know I'm back, and safe, in case there was anyone interested.
Other than that things are so great in my life. New job is starting next week, new school life is starting in about a month, I am in love with an amazing man who cares more about me than anyone(out of the family) I've met before. I really can't complain.
Let me know if you're interested in details about the trip. It was pretty undescribable, but I'll do my best.

I've been having some really crazy dreams lately. moreso than usual.

If you could go anywhere for a weekend gettaway, being a friday night to sunday night, where would you go?

we're unstopable

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 06:02:30 GMT

If I could bottle up the chills that you give me
I would keep them in a jar next to my bed.

so many lyrics combined can express my thoughts, but my own words continue to fail.
you leave me speechless.

<3

its funny how they have so much in common, its scary knowing what the commons are.

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 04:46:39 GMT

I'm starting to find out things worth questioning. I knew a time like this had to come. Looks like tomorrow will require some good old sit and chat. Some things need to be out early.

No need to go through that again.
If I ever again have to feel a pain so deep, someone is definetly getting hurt.
No. I dont even believe it's worth thinking about. Yes, worth discussing, but not worrying over.

dahh. if you are good at anything at all, i guess it'd have to be bringing down a high. but we'll see who ends up on top.
just wait.

how the hell am i going to get to sleep now?

its gotta suck to realize everything you gave up

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 17:58:46 GMT

some people are just plain psycho

you can't break what's real, so you might as well stop trying

Graduation Day.

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 10:29:20 GMT

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

I don't know how walkable stage is going to be today. I've never felt majority of these muscles before, and to think it's no where near 24 hours. Oh man, this is going to be a lonnng day.
Then, there's tonight, and there is Adam, and the two are fitting together almost perfectly right now.
I can't believe it's over.
what a long strange trip it's been.
thanks, for everything.
Julie

i hate gum. always have, always will.

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 11:26:15 GMT

Mom and Aba met the babe last night, he came over for dinner. I guess it was pretty interesting. I wish they'd tell me how I feel about him. I mean it really doesn't matter, because I'm hooked with how I feel, but their opinions always mean a lot to me.
I can't believe I'm up this early again. School. dAH. Oh well, I'm going in his hoodie, and I'm going to look like junk, but I'll be with a little piece of perfection. Well... something like that.
He's started the patch, over 48 hours now, and counting. I'm really proud of him, but how the hell do you help someone through this? Withdrawls are getting bad...and well poorly influencing other decisions. Not intolerable though.
Alright.
I don't even know when this damn breakfast starts. No way in hell I could eat this early though. Work directly after school crap.
Working days is so amazing. I've decided I'm going to stay at BAM for a little while longer. I know Jeri will give me what I need. She's been really great to me.
So thank you to those who responded to my last jobseeking entry. If you guys weren't so damn dirty, and I wasn't in the best relationship of my life, then maybe prostitution would be a slight consideration. But since neither of those are happening, I'll stick with my flexible chill job.
Things are great, how the fuck are you?
Julie

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 13:25:12 GMT

Does anyone know of a job that pays at least 7 dollars an hour and has flexible hours?

i'll be here a while, aint going no where

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 05:38:16 GMT

since no one gave me input on having a graduation party or not, i guess technically i shouldn't because no one will come. But i think im going to. possibly the 26th. you drink = you dont drive. basically anything else goes. get in touch with me for details.

on a seperate note, the only thing that could be greater at this point in my life is if i could sleep out of my house every night. leaving his bed is the hardest part of my every day. for once in my life i can actually say i have a boyfriend, and have it mean something. things are great, and there are only tons more goodtimes to be had.
im hooked for good.

i definetly made the right choice.

mama = dada, her/she = him/he

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:45:32 GMT

But I cannot forget
Refuse to regret
So glad I met you
Take my breath away
Make everyday
Worth all of the pain that I have
Gone through
And mama I've been cryin'
Cause things ain't how they used to be
She said the battles almost won
And we're only several miles from the sun

The rhythm of her conversation
The perfection of her creation
The sex she slipped into my coffee
The way she felt when she first saw me
Hate to love and love to hate her
Like a broken record player
Back and forth and here and gone
And on and on and on and on

my thoughts exactly. maroon 5 is great.
so is he <3

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 19:43:48 GMT

My decision is basically made, and I am pretty sure it is all for the right reasons.

Both of my parents now know about Adam. They won't tell me how they feel until they meet him, but they both know I couldn't be happier and I'm pretty sure they are okay with that.

For some reason things just feel right, and I'm not trying to let go of them. If for some godforsaken reason something doesn't work out, I'll have to deal, just like anything else.
Once my decision is final I will feel so much better, as for now my head is too full of confusion to want anything different.
It's time for a lay down.
Josh is coming tonight and as excited as I am about that, it's less time with my baby and that doesnt seem to thrilling.
im done

everything is relative.

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 14:59:01 GMT

I'm beginning to think that the lucid dream I had early last week is a sign of some sort.
Now I just need to start decifering.
always something to do..

added around 11:30 just because i had to.
from the babe

: YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK I FOUND SOMETHING THAT I A MORE ADDICTED TO THEN CIGS
: SORRY FOR THE CAPS
lilbitzla143: oh really? what might that be?
: U
: I REALLY AM
: REALLY

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
ps - he is getting the patch tonight.

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 18:19:41 GMT

I am almost back down to my ideal weight, and I'm on my period. ahh I love it.
This new daily exercise is working wonders ;)

graduation party
yay or nay
?

help me out if you're interested

ps. that isnt the big decision, we're still working on that one..but we are almost there..

wake up call, has not yet been received...

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 08:01:50 GMT

yeah so...that didn't help solve anything. if anything it only made this more confusing.
ohhhhhhhh i need a guardian angel, i really don't want to make a bad decision. this is too important to let go. both aspects are really.
im ggetting delerious and can't type a whole lot, but i had a magnificent night. i have a few hours left to cry think discover and disscuss, and hopefully come up with a conclusion.
come on julie
we can do this.

I'm somebody's sweetheart <3

to be or not to be?

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 19:19:51 GMT

I am at a point in my life where I am struck with a life changing decision to make. Seeing as this is one of my worst problems (decision making), this doesn't feel to great. I could use some true advice, not bias intended, just some foreign words of wisdom.
I want my mommy. I want to be able to tell her everything, but I don't want her to get the wrong idea.
Oh man. Oh man..

but really, who would I be letting down?
not myself, that's for sure.

Okay...it's ALMOST 10, less than 7 hours to go...and we're off.
blah.